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October 29th, 2007
07:25 am

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Shutting Down This Site
Friends,

I'm going to shut down this site in about a week, and open a new one to talk about life, retirement, and many other things. I'm shutting this one down in that since I opened it, I have got spammed out the butt. The folks here let you do this for free, but must put your email name on a list and you get blasted with their spam. So, I'm going to reopen it under an assumed name and ......let the spam build up under an email account that I could care less about. Okay? I'll try to let all of you know where my new posting will be but, I have to shut this all down. It's crazy. I have been invited so many time to extend my penis by 3 inches, that I can extend it anymore. I got lots of drug offers too. Oh well, such is the internet.

I'll let all know.......but, this will be shut down in a week and I'll go elsewhere to post. Okay?

God Love All,

Jim

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April 22nd, 2007
02:57 pm

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Explain Something To Me?????
Help me here. You with children might be able to tell me what it means or is. The commercial for Burger King. "Sponge Bob, No Pants!"...a guy taking a bubble bath with is wife and kids in the room then he stands and his wife is checking out his "goods," while he says, "Sponge Bob, No Pants!".......I don't get it?

Can't sleep at night. I'm up until 2 am every single night. It's driving me nuts. This chemo is a weird one....most make you sleep. This one keeps me awake.

Got to pay some bills......

Later and God Bless

Jim

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April 19th, 2007
06:05 pm

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The CT Scan Results and Dr.s Comments. Yea!
As many of you know, I saw the doctor today to get my CT or CAT scan results. They were sweet! I was scared to death but the doctor was somewhat please also but remember, this is the doctor that likes to sugar coat things.

First, the two spots, also known as tumors. They had not grown a fraction of a centimeter therefore, they probably are just spots. There was some, "hardening," in an area close to them which is more than likely scar tissue from my surgery 13 months ago. We are going to do a PET scan shortly to see for sure if this is true. He is pretty sure it is so I will take his word for it. All in all, I was awfully pleased. I am to stay on the Tarceva Chemo and even get it refilled. That would be another 50 days of it. That's okay! As long as we have nothing growing inside of me that is not suppose to be there, I'll take anything.

A note of humor somewhat: All of you know how I feel about the Doctor Lady that did my surgery and declared me free of cancer when I should have been down at the Oncologist getting chemo. Well, I've always said she was one, a bitch and secondly, inept. Well, after we got back from the doctor's office, (Grant went with me,)Grant agreed to give me a hair cut. I take my shirt off and rap a large bath towel around my neck while he cuts my hair out in the back yard. After he had finished, I use the towel to wipe the cut hair off of me and all of a sudden he said, "Wait a second." Looking at my back, where I can't see, was a piece of string, thread, hanging out my back at the start of the scar from my surgery. Grant pulled it out and by God it was a stitch the bitch had failed to pull out of me. Can you believe that. This stitch has been in me for 13 months? Wow, was she a professional doctor! Couldn't even take the stitches out right!

I found this humorous. Hope you do also. Gotta run and fix me some dinner.

God Bless and keep those cards and letters and good thoughts and prayers coming folks. I'm still doing chemo but ......so far, so good.

Jimmy Jim

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06:05 pm

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The CT Scan Results and Dr.s Comments. Yea!
As many of you know, I saw the doctor today to get my CT or CAT scan results. They were sweet! I was scared to death but the doctor was somewhat please also but remember, this is the doctor that likes to sugar coat things.

First, the two spots, also known as tumors. They had not grown a fraction of a centimeter therefore, they probably are just spots. There was some, "hardening," in an area close to them which is more than likely scar tissue from my surgery 13 months ago. We are going to do a PET scan shortly to see for sure if this is true. He is pretty sure it is so I will take his word for it. All in all, I was awfully pleased. I am to stay on the Tarceva Chemo and even get it refilled. That would be another 50 days of it. That's okay! As long as we have nothing growing inside of me that is not suppose to be there, I'll take anything.

A note of humor somewhat: All of you know how I feel about the Doctor Lady that did my surgery and declared me free of cancer when I should have been down at the Oncologist getting chemo. Well, I've always said she was one, a bitch and secondly, inept. Well, after we got back from the doctor's office, (Grant went with me,)Grant agreed to give me a hair cut. I take my shirt off and rap a large bath towel around my neck while he cuts my hair out in the back yard. After he had finished, I use the towel to wipe the cut hair off of me and all of a sudden he said, "Wait a second." Looking at my back, where I can see, was a piece of string, thread, hanging out my back at the start of the scar from my surgery. Grant pulled it out and by God it was a stitch the bitch had failed to pull out of me. Can you believe that. This stitch has been in me for 13 months? Wow, was she a professional doctor! Couldn't even take the stitches out right!

I found this humorous. Hope you do also. Gotta run and fix me some dinner.

God Bless and keep those cards and letters and good thoughts and prayers coming folks. I'm still doing chemo but ......so far, so good.

Jimmy Jim

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March 30th, 2007
05:30 pm

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Just A Quick Note!
I woke up yesterday feeling so bad I had to get Edie to drive me to the Dr. Office. It was the worst I have ever felt almost. They ended up telling me, "Mr. Wilson you must stay in bed because you are on Chemo......they just kept saying, "You are on Chemo." I was told to get home and get in bed and stay there. So today was pretty much in bed napping and paying bills. I just got online her for a second to tell you ......I FEEL AWFUL. I going to eat dinner now and stay in bed. Great night, a rerun of a rerun of Grey's Anatomy. Wow! Discovery Channel here I come.

Go have fun and God Bless,

Jim

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March 28th, 2007
06:01 pm

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Good Lord Do I Feel Bad!
I'm sorry for not posting on my journal but I just feel awful and I get dizzy when I stand up. I have to walk holding the side of the walls in morning. Plus, my fingers just don't operate like they use to. I can't believe this feeling of just being so unsteady. My hands just shake. Nausea? Yep, that too! Projectile! I wanted to just list all the things it is doing but it has taken me 5 minutes to just type what I have. I generally can type really fast but it just won't work now. Chemo Brain is real. I'm really struggling keeping my brain working right. Working at all maybe? I had thought of so much to say but it's been 10 minutes since I started this typing. I have received some nice emails. You remember a week or so ago how I had an email from Fernando Rivera? Apparently he and his brothers have a day each week where they apparently meet and talk about their weeks. Well, one of Fernando's brothers wrote to me. They are really nice gentlemen. It helps teach me more spanish too. I a new word or phrase each time I write.....wow. Me knowing another language? I would like that and Spanish too.

Well, my dinner is in the oven and I'm hungry. I still have an appetite so I will run and eat a bite.

God Bless all and ....I shall survive.....Not safe being around me but...I seem to keep standing up......stay tuned also. Much more to come.

Jimmy Jim Jim

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February 24th, 2007
04:16 pm

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So Far - So Good! Not Really Bad!
Well, I am officially back on chemo. I took the magic pill last night. I ate dinner about 7:00 p.m. and watch a little television and just sort of waited for my food to settle. I was tired and wanted to go to bed but I was staying up just to let my food to settle in that the instructions were to take it on an empty stomach. The doctor told me to take it at bed time and it was my bed time, so I took it with a compazine, which is an anti-nausea medicine and it sort of knocked me out but it wasn't bad. I woke up a couple of times need to go to the bath room and was groggy but I made to to and from okay. No nausea. I kept waking this morning but I just didn't want to get up. Still groggy. About 10, I got up and ....wow, I didn't feel all that bad other than sort of lethargic which is one of the things all chemo's do. All in all, I was pleased. I had my coffee, walked out in the rain and got the papers, read the news in bed with Mr. Kitty, and just felt like any other morning other than I was a shade groggy. You know, sort of like a drug hangover. Have you ever taken too much pain medicine or sleep medicine and go to bed and wake up sort of dizzy and well, no that you took too much medicine? That's what it felt like. No headache but some aching in the back and neck.

I had breakfast at 1:00 and watch the Razorbacks lose to Tenn.....boo....but felt not to bad. I don't feel like running around right now but all in all, not bad. Now we just have to see how the next pill works. I'm waiting till Monday to take it and kind of go from there. All of it is based on how I can handle it. If I could get to where I could take one of these chemo pills everyday, I would be happy. Don't know if I can get there but that's my goal.

I'll write more later. Okay?

God bless and have fun,

Jim

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February 23rd, 2007
06:32 pm

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I'm Starting Back On The Chemo Tonight
Well, after I eat and let it digest some, I'm going back on the Tarceiva. My sinus infection is pretty much gone but gone or not, I've got to get back on the chemo. The more I think about it.......the worse I feel about myself for not getting on it and staying on it......something I have to do but I'm sure not looking forward to it. Last time, It kicked my ass. Let's hope I tolerate it better this time. We shall see.

I'll try to write something later this weekend on how I feel. I dead tired today so I know I'm going to rest tomorrow. Last time I took it, all I wanted to do was sleep. With tomorrow being a stormy rainy day, I will sleep forever. USA Network is running an all day Law and Order string of shows so.....I will get into them. I like that show a lot.

Hugs to all,

God bless and ........you know the rest,

Jimmy Jim Jim..........

Oh, I have a friend of mine in Mexico reading my blog now. Mr.Fernando Rivera. He works for ADM there and sells me soybean meal to our Mexican operation there.........Super nice guy. Fernando's wife is having a little surgery soon to have a growth remove from her face so lets all remember her.......I forgot her name. I have it at work.....sorry Fernando mi amigo!

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February 18th, 2007
09:05 am

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Sunday Morning Coffee!
Good Morning All,

I guess most people like to get up on Sunday mornings and read the paper and have their morning coffee. Yes, coffee is a bad habit but hell, living is a bad habit any more. There doesn't seem to be anything in life one can do that isn't bad for you. A young lady I am getting to know at the Bunge Corp. and I were talking about that this week via e-mails. We sort of use e-mail as a chat mechanism and send little one line messages back and forth about a zillion subjects. Anyway, I am having my Sunday morning coffee and I like to read the news on the Internet. I have a number of news sites I go to and catch up on what's going on in the world. I use the newspaper I guess for local news.

Before I go any further, let me say that last night I had one awesome sleep. I slept so good and so sound it was unbelievable. I only get one of these type sleeps about once every three months....(yes I said months,) but man, it sure feels good when you get them. There is a combination of things I guess that must happen in my body chemistry that allows me to sleep well or not sleep well. I slept like a "mother," last night. I feel wonderful. Anyone want to wrestle? haha.

Terrible about Britney Spears. I must say, she looks sexy bald. Not! I never have thought of her as anything but .....sort of a slut shall we say. Slut is a bad word. I'm sorry I used that. I hate to use words that are female oriented and have no male equivalent. Slut, whore, and many I shouldn't write are not fair words. Take bitch though for example. You have bastard as it's male equivalent. It's a fair word! How did I get off on this. Anyway, Britney needs some big time professional help it appears. Let's hope she gets it. More car bombs in Iraq. That's getting to be old news but when it takes an Americans lives, lets not look at it as old news. Let's be sorry for the loss for the family of the soldiers that die. I can honestly say, I was against this stupid war before it ever started. It's going to be another, "cut and run," war like we seem to always get our ass in. Vietnam, sending troops to Lebanon only to have them blown up in one car bomb and we cut and ran. Somalia? A Black Hawk goes down so we cut and run. We're good at starting things, killing a mess of human beings, then somehow get tired of it and cut and run. It's getting old. Oh well, some will disagree with me so I better stop here. Let me remind you though that I was in the Vietnam Era and served my four years but got myself out alive thank you. So that gives me the right to gripe. It does! The 140,000 troops should be in Afghanistan, not Iraq. Enough said. Actually, the 140,000 troops should be home. That's all about that!

It's suppose to start warming back up here. We had a beautiful winter going until about mid-January then it went to winter. It had been so warm I did not wear a coat out until mid-January. We had snow and ice since but next week, 60's and higher according to local weather man so yea. I love spring and I hope it comes early.

Now, I'm going to cut and run. I'm going to do some breakfast and go wash my car. It's awful on the inside too. I stop at the mail box each day in my car and leave the junk mail in it and carry the bills and real mail inside the house. I have to get that junk mail out of the car and it the trash where it belongs. Have you noticed how much, "spam" we get in the mail today? Every time you write a check for something, someone takes your name and address off the check and bingo, junk mail. Says a lot for using a bank card now days. Oh well........

Nothing about cancer. I guess that is good. This blog is suppose to be about cancer but it doesn't hurt to just chit chat now and then right?

Hugs to all,

Jimmy Jim

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February 17th, 2007
02:17 pm

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Saturday At Two!
I was going to write a few comments last night after work but I felt kind of lousy so I watch a little t.v. and went on to bed. Damned if I didn't have an anxiety attack yesterday afternoon at the office at exactly 2:30. It's the worst feeling in the world and they just come out of the blue and you have no clue why. Well, I know why! My subconscious is really eating away at me I guess. I'm just frustrated and totally overwhelmed with all of this right now. I've had so much drama in my life that I guess I am just sick of it. Too many things that would knock a normal man down have faced me too many times. I guess you could say, I'm knocked to my knees but not down yet. So I have to get off my knees and stand back up. Sounds easy but it's not. I promise you it's not.

I have decided something that might make you smile. Once I have beaten this thing, I'm going to do something for me. I don't like my dark fatty eyes. I think I will get an eye tuck when this is over. My eyes look like I'm old and they look like I'm tired. So, and eye job for me. Is that being vain? I just don't like them so I want to change them. How bout that?

Going to start something for dinner in the over that takes a long time to cook. I might come back and write more later. All of you have a nice weekend and .........God Bless.

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